A new lease on life?

It seems like I can either just let go and wither away hooked up to a blood cleansing machine watching all the mouth breathers turned to living bone, and eventually join the group. Or. and this is a big or. I can really try, which basically is a form of pretending to be okay, and thus pretend becomes reality. And it works, it's biblical,and it really works. So, for today I walked the dog and I felt good. I watched a couple of young surfers travel around the world on TV and it was nice to see the joy in their faces. It made me feel good, and I for a moment, could experience life in an odd way.